冷戰、外交、政治或隨意手記

我想最近一直在讓自己思考的問題是，如何才能讓自己好好的面對自己該要做的事，而不卻步，到不是因為害怕人生辛苦，我想這是每個人的必經之路，沒有痛過、苦過，不知道自己的方向該如何走，對，或許我自己曾在人生的道路上猶豫，但我錯了，this is not just a game of life, you got to know, hank, there's no room for backwards, cz once you lose your grip for your goal, then, it's not gonna, like that easy, going back on track. And you have to stick to your step very firmly on every step you choose. Life isn't all sun shine and rainbow, you already knew that, plus your climbing age, it's critical to think precisely about what the goals are and how many of them can be reach or not. Here're the classes of my life, i'm not like people with too many imaginations, but i want to weight the important things of my future plan, then, make a priorities.

I won't mess up with my life anymore like i was back in 15-6 years old, which gave me a best example that I should keep on going through my plan, and the same time, be aware of the changes of the environment. People can’t just live all by himself and stay away from the society. So, recently, situations of my life bring a lot of thoughts to me, at the meantime, become a power to push myself, and I want to accelerate it. Bring it hahha，重點，一定要聽人講完話，不要隨便把情緒露出在職場，我太遜了這點。

Finally, I got a reply from Taipei Med school that informs me to the job interview on next monday at noon. wow, that really pumps up my feeling that opportunity eventually hits me. oh I really don't know what to say, just because i know, even it's not the best place than where i am now, but still, it could possibly turn into a wonder land for me. I have to admit that i lose my temper these days, cz my temperary job ends this month, so I'll start to look for another place which i could make my plan haha, Now I feel grateful for the people up there in the sky to look after me, whether it's Buddha or Jesus, anyway, I love you, and I'll love myself more than before, it's the self-esteem which affects my personality. I wish to be a humble person with outgoing and passionate attitude, and more, use this attitude to live through my life.

This does affect me a lot, cz i do too much talking,, just so I know not much come true after the flying words and imaginations about the life in the future.

今天又是個奇怪的天氣，早上溫暖如春，結果晚上大變天，也謝謝老師來辦公室，雖然他到辦公室來我會緊張，但我覺得今天整個看起來是很棒的，把一些事都已經準備好!

Anyway, I won't just satisfy the current circumstance that life has been ok for almost half year, cz i'm fresh to the job market, and i got much to learn as a rookie, now I understand nothing is reachable, unless you work your ass off for the reward of your hard-working. So, if tomorrow's weather was bad as today, i'll choose to take some Grammar books to see my girl friend, then we could work on together. One thing i got mention that i want to thank my GF bought me the dinner, we had good time in wathcing the show on cable tv channel 21, a famous westler who is out for off-shore fishing. Basically, I really appreicate this kind of little happiness only for two of us, I'll cherish this moment for good.

except the good time we had tonight, i decide to work on my Eng, because of the pressure for the future, I definitely won't give up the language ability and left for rotten. it's not the way to improve myself, hence, I'll make it better and aprehensive the use of the Eng to my field of my study or area of my interests. let's wait and see. keep up the good work.

今天看到優雜誌還是哪ㄧ本雜誌講到，面對工作中所帶來的情緒，千萬不要以太負面的心態來任何事，這不但使個人在工作中，容易被情緒影響到失去工作應該要注意的重點，且很容易被看出端倪，察覺到不論是隱藏的敵意或怒氣，我覺得最近在學習的，就是調適，成長中必然要做的調適，會讓自己對生活中的事物敏感度增加，媽最常叮嚀的是注意力與察顏觀色，或許再多多調適，多換個角度想，會讓自己多點空間。對自己或別人都好。哈哈哈哈，大笑ㄧ下吧，到底是有什麼非要堅持的點，把自己搞得烏煙漲氣。

另外ㄧ件事就是，我印了多益考試繳費單，哈哈，要學著換個心態，確實是輕鬆了點。要繼續多運動還有看書啊，真的要繼續堅持這習慣，讓自己常常看到東西來思考。沒事多思考，多思考沒事。我想那天與小鄧聊到的冷戰開端。也給自己ㄧ些生活空間。真的是很棒棒的討論。

今天真的是個好天氣，我想這是個非常好的周日，如果不要算現在發生的電腦完全的故障以及回阿公家吃飯的不愉快心情，我想都還算可以，但今天的太陽讓人很有精神，

起床後，就也開心的拿了兩個竽頭沙包與兩肉包蒸來當早餐，再加上五股粉尬克寧，這個早餐是很棒的，也讓自己享受這早上帶來的氣氛，然後就到了台茂去看一直想看卻

又等到年後才能看到的die-hard 5，這個劇情我只能說，實在是有點小扯，怎麼就是這麼剛好，兒子是CIA幹員，老爸則是NY COP，而且每次都有一堆奇怪的問題人物

或是大魔王級的BOSS來給麥克連出考題，但的確，年紀這麼大還能這樣跑來跑去，確實是要好好的獎勵一下了，好歹他這個系列一直都有這種破關式的感覺，超級螞利真人

版，但整體來說，是還可以啦，若要說最喜歡的一集，肯定是第三集，它這部實在是有點精典，那時的布魯斯威利還有頭髮耶，可以想像嗎？但真的沒幾個白人光頭可以很好

It's better that who you know than what you know, i hate to admit that, but as a just society greengrass, i have to say that does affect people. Things happen these days truely bring me back to earth that the relations between people are that as easy as we thought, just like the alliance among nations. If i try to use this situation, then, project toward international system, it does has its pattern to boost the great one telling other actors in the system to follow the rules of theirs. Somehow, great powers also have been through all the up and down in the power struggling , hard power like economy, and military sometimes lose their influence when all the weak actors gather together against the big ones, it doesn't mean have to be military, also includes the interests of most actors in the system, the balancing between Great ones and weak ones forms a stand-off in certain issues like, Sovereignty, territorial conflict, economical interests and so on. In general, the bang-wagon effect is the common ways for actors to gather all the strength they need to fight the great one. so maybe next time, I should put the review for that book. Nice, another book is on my list now.

for this two weeks, we can see the stirring atmosphere of this two country in asia, China and Japan, and affect the relations between United States, Japan, and China. Unfortunately, Taiwan, stocked in between, is in  the gray area. As a TW people, we should learn how deal with our problems first, then, turn our guns toward our enemies. except for the status we can't have in the written form of international law. Any way, that's cliche for the cross-strait relations, i won't even think of bring it to my topic here today. the Senkaku island will be the key or in the opposite, even the sea base around the island are contain with large amount of strategic rescources, the reason or cause which alike tonking resolution back in 1963, Vietnam, Is it just another form of Cold War, or really just as simple as fighting for the resources? I don't think the trilateral relation between the second term of Obama administration, Chairman Xi, and the 安倍晉三, the priminister of Japn will work all together on this issue, but it's hard to see whether bangwagon effect starts to affect the Asia power balancing?

十點二十分的捷運站，今天是這兩個月來，唯一ㄧ次十點才下班，原本想說看能不能早點走，但明天要進行ㄧ項大工作，希望今天的辛苦，明天至少不會太容易被釘。晚點回家要好好來翻ㄧ下書本，因為有很多書還沒看完，真的要累積點東西在腦袋裡思考了，最近ㄧ直在想權力與地緣政治的相互連貫性，因此真的除了這個月領薪水要去報名多益外，真的要再多看點期刊與書本，除了該念的本業書外，也是要看些其他類別的書，不論是小說還有其他作品，養成多多涉略書籍的習慣，絕對不會有什麼壞處。我想還是要多往光明面看，我想看書至少可以暫時忘掉ㄧ些不好的東西。離開了就不要帶情緒，好好規劃自己才比較實在。繼續加油

今天要來開書單，首要第一本，就是國關界大師Hans Morgenthau's master piece, "Politics among Nations：The Struggle for Power and Peace"，this is the book that i first recommanded for people of this field, we all know not only the great powers can use their influence to weild the distribution of power, all in all, it's the natural law, the fittest survives. because of the instant changing of the world, the great powers keep their status in ceratin levels, that others can't reach or be campare with, to form the international system. key point is the power, plus the strength composited from its military, economy, and will of its people, to be the main body of their status quo.

The strength is the key to stay in power, and the measures to reach the ultimate goal are many. Power is a symbol of being an influential actor in the system, frankly, the great powers have the larger say on others in the system, Meanwhile, they form the rules of the system which followed by those actors within the system. it's the cause of the struggling for power, it always will be the truth of the international society. Power makes a great power to speak louder and act more aggressive.